I still love you
(9:05pm)no I don’t.
(9:06pm)I’m so confused. why did this happen.
(2:26am)I want you to be happy. if this is what it takes then I’m okay with it. be happy. for me. please.
(10:45am)don’t you ever give up.
(12:02am)I kind of hate you for leaving me.
(8:57pm)but I still love you.
(8:59pm)I won’t look at you in person but I talk to you in my head
(11:14am)you’re a better listener this way.
(11:15am)I’m sorry.
(1:43am)maybe if I wasn’t so fucked up this wouldn’t have happened
(3:37am)no. it’s not my fault.
(3:38am)but it kind of is.
(3:39am)I hate this
(2:00pm)I don’t know who I am without you.
(12:01am)why can’t things be like they were before
(10:13am)please come back to me. I need you. you need me.
(1:58am)we are so goddamn bad for each other it’s beautiful. I’m addicted to our heartbreak.
(4:06am)I went through our old messages. I cried because you promised to always be there. you lied.
(9:16pm)you smiled at me in the hall today. i thought my chest was being ripped open
(11:36pm)I’m glad you’re smiling though.
(11:37pm)
stop for just one second.
think about all the people you’ve secretly had a crush on. all the people you’ve found attractive, but never said anything to. every stranger you’ve temporarily fallen in love with on public transportation. all the people you’ve dreamt of and thought of in the early mornings.
and now take a moment to realize that you have been this person for so many people… and you have no idea.
